To Be Continued....never...

Writing has always been a big passion of mine. Hence, a blog. But I've found I've always been terrible at satisfying suspense. At least to me. No one has told me either way. But I do know how an ending can ruin the whole book.
There is a certain author I read for a period of time. She was excellent at producing cliffhangers and the "edge-of-your-seat" kind of format. But she wrote preteen kids books. So her books had impossibly happy endings. This ruined the whole experience for me. Ever since I read her books I wanted to make sure I was never like that.
Recently I wrote a dark story. This is pretty normal for me, but this one I tried to make more realistic instead of morbid. I think it's ok, and the two people I showed it to said it was ok, but I hated the ending. I ruined my story with the ending. It was intended to be a story about someone who no one cared about. So the first half or so is pretty depressing and sad. This is the part of the story I like the most. It sounds like my usual voice of writing. Then I wanted the story to have a happy ending. So I made an incredibly happy ending. Like, too good to be true happy ending. I hate it.
This is exactly why I don't normally "end" my stories. The words cease to continue but the story still goes on in the reader's mind. That's how I want my audience to experience my stories. Those stories always get the best feedback. So I don't let myself learn how to end a good book properly. Then I'm not able to progress in my writing, it just stays the same. Of course, I don't write like a five-year old, but I'm not positive I'll be able to get past my teen writings, which become less and less good the older you get and the higher everyone's standards get.
I'd like to think after a couple years of doing a blog or something of that nature, I'll look back and wonder if it's really me, if I really used to write like that. There's no way that I can progress unless I make mistakes first. Mistakes help you learn, it's a fact of life. But how can I possibly know the mistake I make unless someone tells me? I know there are writers better than me, there always will be, at least in my opinion. This doesn't mean I want people to sugar coat their feedback. Yet, I still want them to be tactful. Is that too much to ask?
Anyway, if you want an example of how I usually end my stories, have a link to my favorite video I've done. I'd show you from here, but the file's gone. So here, have a link:

Sara Bareilles-Gravity Music Video (sims 2)

So now you know how I hate ending things...

*ahem*

Um...I'm...just gonna go...then...bye..

*leaves awkwardly*